The past few years I have lived behind a veil… no one knew who I was because I did not know…
My shadow self became my voice while I allowed myself to sit back, just on the horizon of light and dark. I hid…
Deep inside of my heart was a pain. It burdened me to speak of it so I silenced my voice to protect my being. It was a choice. My choice.
I listened and learned from my surroundings in stealth. Only speaking what I considered necessary truths. Only to protect my walls and boundaries.
The secret to my silence was My Smile. My beauty cloaked my pain. The light on the horizon was bright enough to shield the darkness beyond.
The Secret Smile was a struggle. The weight of the lies I told my self grew heavier. No one knew the gravity weighing on me. If there was a clue ever written on my face. The veil of silence eliminated any proof.
But then, I began to lose belief in myself. I thought I was safe teetering on the borders I created. I was losing sight of my purpose and no longer had a choice. I was spiraling out of control. Who was I ?
I humbly asked my Ancestors for direction. I lifted my eyes up to the Heavens. I met with the Source, the Source acknowledged my Substance. The Silence was filled with a Most High and Holy Vibration.
When I looked back at me I saw a reflection of the Great Goodness within me, the dark path behind me was light up and guided this new path before me. My pain was replaced with gratitude.
The veil is a souvenir I have on this journey of self discovery. I am becoming my own self fulling prophecy. I wished to share this with myself as a reminder of how far I’ve come. My smile is lighter. Asé.
Grand Rising! I begin this day with confidence. This challenge was inspiring on so many different levels. It was a push for mindfulness. Channeling my energy into my chakras from my surroundings and from within myself daily. I learned to set aside time for things that need to be sorted out. Using the core values of each chakra to empower my actions and intentions. By this day I felt some where in between energized because of the meditation, realization, enlightenment; and exhausted from the information overload and tired from work. You see I, was having so many ideas and visions that I needed sometime to process. Of course, time stops for no one so I have to keep moving!
My I arranged my crystals for the Third Eye: Selentine, Blue Calcite, Lapis Lazilu, and Flourite. In the early rising of this day, I spent sometime mediating on the paradigm shift and all the changes approaching. Hoping to add as much positivity and love into the frequency of energy. I opened my third eye to the new day to experience. Anointed myself as a vessel for Light and Love, then hit the grind.
I am very specific about who I employ to cleanse and style my hair. My hair is my physical crown as well as shields my ethereal crown. I’m also very particular about who I employ to cleanse and style my hair. The hands must be gifted and source their energy from Light and Love. I got a much needed No-Poo Transformation to cleanse my hair for a protective style. Remember at the end if this week I’m seeing Kendrick’s Damn Tour in D.C. My hair has to be laid.
On the last day of this challenge I took to reflect on the previous days. In entirety, I was so proud of myself from starting and finishing. I encouraged so many of my friends and collegues to try the challenge. I intend to do the challenge again. Instead if a heavy focus on my aesthetic and crystals, I’ll work with foods and oils.