The past few years I have lived behind a veil… no one knew who I was because I did not know…
My shadow self became my voice while I allowed myself to sit back, just on the horizon of light and dark. I hid…
Deep inside of my heart was a pain. It burdened me to speak of it so I silenced my voice to protect my being. It was a choice. My choice.
I listened and learned from my surroundings in stealth. Only speaking what I considered necessary truths. Only to protect my walls and boundaries.
The secret to my silence was My Smile. My beauty cloaked my pain. The light on the horizon was bright enough to shield the darkness beyond.
The Secret Smile was a struggle. The weight of the lies I told my self grew heavier. No one knew the gravity weighing on me. If there was a clue ever written on my face. The veil of silence eliminated any proof.
But then, I began to lose belief in myself. I thought I was safe teetering on the borders I created. I was losing sight of my purpose and no longer had a choice. I was spiraling out of control. Who was I ?
I humbly asked my Ancestors for direction. I lifted my eyes up to the Heavens. I met with the Source, the Source acknowledged my Substance. The Silence was filled with a Most High and Holy Vibration.
When I looked back at me I saw a reflection of the Great Goodness within me, the dark path behind me was light up and guided this new path before me. My pain was replaced with gratitude.
The veil is a souvenir I have on this journey of self discovery. I am becoming my own self fulling prophecy. I wished to share this with myself as a reminder of how far I’ve come. My smile is lighter. Asé.
The Sacral Chakra is second on the Chakra scale. The sacral chakra is influenced by water and creativity. It honors uniqueness and change within an individual body. In a sense ‘going with the flow,’ and allowing space for the self to be open.
This chakra has the strongest effect on the body’s sexual tendencies and desires. It is located in the region of the reproductive organs on both the male and female body. The Sacral Chakra encourages a healthy connection between emotions and sexual pleasure. To often, this Chakra is weakened by poor experiences and meaningless encounters. It is important to know and understand how one feels love.
This morning I woke particularly confident. Grateful for another day to challenge myself to Be Better. I prepared my crystals for the day’s world: Orange Calcite. This stone works with the creative energies to keep imagination active. Seek inspiration from everything and go with those motions.
When you perceive yourself as an artist you give yourself the constant relief of never having to justify your decisions. You allow yourself to explore and learn. Even as things may feel wrong or bad, you learn to accept even that for what it is… possibilities.
My day was great and full. Spent my sunset in Prospect Park celebrating new life and birth. A genius idea of becoming a dula or midwife came to me this evening while blowing bubbles with a baby girl, Luna. Although I want kids I want to overcome my apprehensions about childbirth.
Later that evening, two Cancer friends joined me for my Sacral Meditation Session for the night. My rising sign is a Cancer so I enjoy being amidst Cancerous energy, it helps me toss a softer palette. For as long as I’ve known my Soul Sister, she has insisted that I read crystal balls. I doubted myself as working on crystal ball readings is not something I considered, although I have great communication with crystals. My Soul Sister granted me with a powerful gift, a Bright Blue Calcite Crystal Ball.