The past few years I have lived behind a veil… no one knew who I was because I did not know…
My shadow self became my voice while I allowed myself to sit back, just on the horizon of light and dark. I hid…
Deep inside of my heart was a pain. It burdened me to speak of it so I silenced my voice to protect my being. It was a choice. My choice.
I listened and learned from my surroundings in stealth. Only speaking what I considered necessary truths. Only to protect my walls and boundaries.
The secret to my silence was My Smile. My beauty cloaked my pain. The light on the horizon was bright enough to shield the darkness beyond.
The Secret Smile was a struggle. The weight of the lies I told my self grew heavier. No one knew the gravity weighing on me. If there was a clue ever written on my face. The veil of silence eliminated any proof.
But then, I began to lose belief in myself. I thought I was safe teetering on the borders I created. I was losing sight of my purpose and no longer had a choice. I was spiraling out of control. Who was I ?
I humbly asked my Ancestors for direction. I lifted my eyes up to the Heavens. I met with the Source, the Source acknowledged my Substance. The Silence was filled with a Most High and Holy Vibration.
When I looked back at me I saw a reflection of the Great Goodness within me, the dark path behind me was light up and guided this new path before me. My pain was replaced with gratitude.
The veil is a souvenir I have on this journey of self discovery. I am becoming my own self fulling prophecy. I wished to share this with myself as a reminder of how far I’ve come. My smile is lighter. Asé.
Since the last Full Moon I have decided to move back to my home town of Philadelphia. I made the choice to go back home to be closer to family, friends, and the movement. My city is growing and changing its important that Philadelphia is my home base. Leading up to this upcoming moon cycle the Chakra Challenge is helping me to reshape my energy, thoughts, and emotions.
Since I’ve made the choice to transition. There has been a weight lifted off my shoulders. As a result, I have been very keen to analyze my own needs and my own time. Constantly working for someone else to barely make ends meet isn’t cutting it anymore. I took the day off to get my mind right as this move means that so will be my own boss. On the contrary of going to work I need to get into the hustlers spirit.
I stayed home all day today meditate and manifest. I did some journaling, prioritized some moving operations and overall enjoyed peace and quiet at home. Most of my day was spent silent speaking to myself thru the words I wrote. With my fluorite and lapis in hand I had a very productive day.
Later in the afternoon I decided it would be wise to go for a walk. It was a truly beautiful day, one that was spent indoors mostly. Stepping out felt like an adventure. I just wanted to take a light stroll and spend some money. My course led me to a Light Worker named Star. We shared conversations about dreams, growth, and change. For the first time I got my tarot read.
The tarot cards read Swiftness, The Fool, and Failure. They resonated very well with the path I am beginning to walk down. Swiftness expresses my attitude towards life, as an Aries I’m quick to jump into things. Pulling this card reminded me of my impulsive nature. It doesn’t work for everyone but it works for me. Swiftness is a strength of mine. The Fool was a reminder to live my best life for me. When you place the needs of others before your own you become The Fool. Lastly, Failure, everyone has their own perception of failure. This card reminded me not to fear change because of the possiblity of failure. Then I thought if I am on a journey of growth and change, failure is relative.
As time goes on I’m working on providing clarity with my words and speech. Star shared a great technique for observing self talk. Switching a bracelet from wrist to wrist each time your openly or maybe even quietly express a complaint. The movements start to reshape your reality as your become more conscious of what is being said once a movement is prescribed. It was the perfect takeaway for my throat. chakra day.
I looked forward to this day. Not only because it was my day off but because I genuinely love Sundays. It was a beautiful Sunday to be out and active. The most perfect day to charge up my Solar Plexus Chakra. Yellow is my color!
The Solar Plexus Chakra is located in the center or core of the body. Self confidence is key when charging up the Solar Plexus Chakra. Creating a space for your body to feel safe in. At noon when the sun was high, I attended Vinyasa & Flow just to align my energy appropriately. Body goals: to be healthy, fit, and always flexible.
While working on my Core I began to analyze the spaces I take up. I currently feel as though I am wearing clothes that are too tight and that I must shed them in order to grow. I’m making a big move in the fall and relying on my devices and my faith to lead me. I’m very excited and look forward to what is to come. In the meantime I am still claiming my territory and shining intentional light when I can.
Yellow crystal and stones positively impact the Solar Plexus. The energies within the stone charge up feelings of self confidence and optimism. The strength of the shine with the body is drawn out by the crystals. Separately of course they have their own powers. Golden Calcite helps one on a spiritual journey. The stone allows for the mind to open up to new realizations and new perspectives. Citrine allows for abundance to flow actively throughout your life. As the body acts on desires they become a reality.
One of my goals is to become a creative director for scenes, videos, and photoshoots. Today I got my make up done professionally and designed my own shoot. The act of modeling is allowing for more comfort in my body. It felt amazing to allow my confident to take up space and flow thru my being.
That evening I meditated on my core. I thanked the universe for the beautiful day. For the sunlight and the moonlight. For family and friends. For the opportunity to grow and shift. For blessing me with Divinity. Amun
The Chakra Challenge is something I’ve been conceptualizing for a few months. I’m constantly looking for new and creative ways to explore my energy portals. And improve my quality of health.
The Chakra System is a channel of energy points beginning at the base of the spine rising to the crown of the head. Each energy point corresponds to an organ or organ system and effects the functions of physical body. The chakra points also have specific colors aligning to their energy patterns. Many things such as foods, sights, smells, and touching the points can all be very stimulating to the chakras.
The Chakra Challenge is a self care technique inspiring one to reflect on the inner strength while putting effort into the outer appearance. Wear the colors that influence the Chakra point or charge up the chakras by meditating.
Day 1 began today! Starting at the Base Chakra, the Root Chakra. The day was designed to be busy and I knew I would need a lot of endurance. From early afternoon to about 9pm my books were loaded at the salon. The goal was to not get distracted by outside energies but to focus on my own levels. Doing the best I can from start to finish, remaining consistent, and checking in with my clients as well as myself.
As a crystal child, I am constanty working with crystal energies and frequencies. I make a point to never enter my place of work without Black Tourmaline. Simply because it protects against negative vibes and that is crucial in my industry. On this day however the tourmaline was to ground me in spiritual practicality. Assisted by my Red Jasper to ground me in my work and keep me determined.
Aside from stability the root chakra assist one in their analysis of their fears. Prior to starting this challenge I was in a position in which I felt extremely unsafe. I’ll include the details in a separate post. The experience served as a catalyst for me to begin the challenge so the details are equally as important.
Fear is a strong determined factor for how behavior is rationalized. The scale has two extremes – fear and love. While my work day was extremely productive I encountered my fear late into the night… waterbugs.
Although the insect wasn’t alive I still felt myself frozen in fear. I am aware of my bugphobia and perhaps this brought an awareness to start developing courage. I was able to observe myself in fear. I become very still. On this journey I want to use this stillness to my advantage and train this stillness into stealth.
I finished off my Root Chakra day with a meditation session. I have exploring binary beats and frequencies and their effects on the body. The sacred sounds induce a new level of focus and have impacted me tremendously. A 10 minute Binary Chakra healing session provided by YouTube allowed me to tune my base and prepare my mind.