The past few years I have lived behind a veil… no one knew who I was because I did not know…
My shadow self became my voice while I allowed myself to sit back, just on the horizon of light and dark. I hid…
Deep inside of my heart was a pain. It burdened me to speak of it so I silenced my voice to protect my being. It was a choice. My choice.
I listened and learned from my surroundings in stealth. Only speaking what I considered necessary truths. Only to protect my walls and boundaries.
The secret to my silence was My Smile. My beauty cloaked my pain. The light on the horizon was bright enough to shield the darkness beyond.
The Secret Smile was a struggle. The weight of the lies I told my self grew heavier. No one knew the gravity weighing on me. If there was a clue ever written on my face. The veil of silence eliminated any proof.
But then, I began to lose belief in myself. I thought I was safe teetering on the borders I created. I was losing sight of my purpose and no longer had a choice. I was spiraling out of control. Who was I ?
I humbly asked my Ancestors for direction. I lifted my eyes up to the Heavens. I met with the Source, the Source acknowledged my Substance. The Silence was filled with a Most High and Holy Vibration.
When I looked back at me I saw a reflection of the Great Goodness within me, the dark path behind me was light up and guided this new path before me. My pain was replaced with gratitude.
The veil is a souvenir I have on this journey of self discovery. I am becoming my own self fulling prophecy. I wished to share this with myself as a reminder of how far I’ve come. My smile is lighter. Asé.
Grand Rising! I begin this day with confidence. This challenge was inspiring on so many different levels. It was a push for mindfulness. Channeling my energy into my chakras from my surroundings and from within myself daily. I learned to set aside time for things that need to be sorted out. Using the core values of each chakra to empower my actions and intentions. By this day I felt some where in between energized because of the meditation, realization, enlightenment; and exhausted from the information overload and tired from work. You see I, was having so many ideas and visions that I needed sometime to process. Of course, time stops for no one so I have to keep moving!
My I arranged my crystals for the Third Eye: Selentine, Blue Calcite, Lapis Lazilu, and Flourite. In the early rising of this day, I spent sometime mediating on the paradigm shift and all the changes approaching. Hoping to add as much positivity and love into the frequency of energy. I opened my third eye to the new day to experience. Anointed myself as a vessel for Light and Love, then hit the grind.
I am very specific about who I employ to cleanse and style my hair. My hair is my physical crown as well as shields my ethereal crown. I’m also very particular about who I employ to cleanse and style my hair. The hands must be gifted and source their energy from Light and Love. I got a much needed No-Poo Transformation to cleanse my hair for a protective style. Remember at the end if this week I’m seeing Kendrick’s Damn Tour in D.C. My hair has to be laid.
On the last day of this challenge I took to reflect on the previous days. In entirety, I was so proud of myself from starting and finishing. I encouraged so many of my friends and collegues to try the challenge. I intend to do the challenge again. Instead if a heavy focus on my aesthetic and crystals, I’ll work with foods and oils.
Since the last Full Moon I have decided to move back to my home town of Philadelphia. I made the choice to go back home to be closer to family, friends, and the movement. My city is growing and changing its important that Philadelphia is my home base. Leading up to this upcoming moon cycle the Chakra Challenge is helping me to reshape my energy, thoughts, and emotions.
Since I’ve made the choice to transition. There has been a weight lifted off my shoulders. As a result, I have been very keen to analyze my own needs and my own time. Constantly working for someone else to barely make ends meet isn’t cutting it anymore. I took the day off to get my mind right as this move means that so will be my own boss. On the contrary of going to work I need to get into the hustlers spirit.
I stayed home all day today meditate and manifest. I did some journaling, prioritized some moving operations and overall enjoyed peace and quiet at home. Most of my day was spent silent speaking to myself thru the words I wrote. With my fluorite and lapis in hand I had a very productive day.
Later in the afternoon I decided it would be wise to go for a walk. It was a truly beautiful day, one that was spent indoors mostly. Stepping out felt like an adventure. I just wanted to take a light stroll and spend some money. My course led me to a Light Worker named Star. We shared conversations about dreams, growth, and change. For the first time I got my tarot read.
The tarot cards read Swiftness, The Fool, and Failure. They resonated very well with the path I am beginning to walk down. Swiftness expresses my attitude towards life, as an Aries I’m quick to jump into things. Pulling this card reminded me of my impulsive nature. It doesn’t work for everyone but it works for me. Swiftness is a strength of mine. The Fool was a reminder to live my best life for me. When you place the needs of others before your own you become The Fool. Lastly, Failure, everyone has their own perception of failure. This card reminded me not to fear change because of the possiblity of failure. Then I thought if I am on a journey of growth and change, failure is relative.
As time goes on I’m working on providing clarity with my words and speech. Star shared a great technique for observing self talk. Switching a bracelet from wrist to wrist each time your openly or maybe even quietly express a complaint. The movements start to reshape your reality as your become more conscious of what is being said once a movement is prescribed. It was the perfect takeaway for my throat. chakra day.