I am my own self fulfilling prophecy

The past few years I have lived behind a veil… no one knew who I was because I did not know…

My shadow self became my voice while I allowed myself to sit back, just on the horizon of light and dark. I hid…

Deep inside of my heart was a pain. It burdened me to speak of it so I silenced my voice to protect my being. It was a choice. My choice.

I listened and learned from my surroundings in stealth. Only speaking what I considered necessary truths. Only to protect my walls and boundaries.

The secret to my silence was My Smile. My beauty cloaked my pain. The light on the horizon was bright enough to shield the darkness beyond.

The Secret Smile was a struggle. The weight of the lies I told my self grew heavier. No one knew the gravity weighing on me. If there was a clue ever written on my face. The veil of silence eliminated any proof.

But then, I began to lose belief in myself. I thought I was safe teetering on the borders I created. I was losing sight of my purpose and no longer had a choice. I was spiraling out of control. Who was I ?

I humbly asked my Ancestors for direction. I lifted my eyes up to the Heavens. I met with the Source, the Source acknowledged my Substance. The Silence was filled with a Most High and Holy Vibration.

When I looked back at me I saw a reflection of the Great Goodness within me, the dark path behind me was light up and guided this new path before me. My pain was replaced with gratitude.

The veil is a souvenir I have on this journey of self discovery. I am becoming my own self fulling prophecy. I wished to share this with myself as a reminder of how far I’ve come. My smile is lighter. Asé.

Third Eye & Crown Challenge

Grand Rising! I begin this day with confidence. This challenge was inspiring on so many different levels. It was a push for mindfulness. Channeling my energy into my chakras from my surroundings and from within myself daily. I learned to set aside time for things that need to be sorted out. Using the core values of each chakra to empower my actions and intentions. By this day I felt some where in between energized because of the meditation, realization, enlightenment; and exhausted from the information overload and tired from work. You see I, was having so many ideas and visions that I needed sometime to process. Of course, time stops for no one so I have to keep moving!


My I arranged my crystals for the Third Eye: Selentine, Blue Calcite, Lapis Lazilu, and Flourite. In the early rising of this day, I spent sometime mediating on the paradigm shift and all the changes approaching. Hoping to add as much positivity and love into the frequency of energy. I opened my third eye to the new day to experience. Anointed myself as a vessel for Light and Love, then hit the grind.


I am very specific about who I employ to cleanse and style my hair. My hair is my physical crown as well as shields my ethereal crown. I’m also very particular about who I employ to cleanse and style my hair. The hands must be gifted and source their energy from Light and Love. I got a much needed No-Poo Transformation to cleanse my hair for a protective style. Remember at the end if this week I’m seeing Kendrick’s Damn Tour in D.C. My hair has to be laid.


On the last day of this challenge I took to reflect on the previous days. In entirety, I was so proud of myself from starting and finishing. I encouraged so many of my friends and collegues to try the challenge. I intend to do the challenge again. Instead if a heavy focus on my aesthetic and crystals, I’ll work with foods and oils.

 

Heart Chakra Challenge 

Today was a time for focus on love and strengthening the heart. The Heart Chakra Center is placed on the heart. The heart chakra is the first in line of the upper Chakras. In most people there is a slight disconnect between the lower Chakras and the upper. The upper region has more of an impact on the spiritual body while the lower dictates the physical body.

In all honesty, my heart chakra day was a very rocky one. Around mid-day my being was challenged by the very distinctive ways of the word. I am an extremely passion person when it comes to my people and the treatment of my people in all walks of life. I stood up for what I believed in, knowing in the back of my mind my choices were made out of love. Although I feel I passed the test, I still had a heavy feeling weighing on me. My support system reaffirmed that my words were true and my intentions were pure.


I carried my tourmaline with me as per usual and I’m glad I did. When the energy in a space is to negative and consuming it’s best to work out an exit. My Rose Quartz aided my tolerance for myself. I can release thoughts that do not serve my intentions. I’m working to balance my spiritual body with my physical body. The Malachite creates space for the hearts energy to grow. The bands and layers teach the heart to recognize patterns and to flow with patterns of love and compassion.

Unfortunately my heavy heart was distracting my drive to meditate this evening. I did write out some things I wish to release from my trinity and set them free. I wrote out some positive intentions over water and drank that. I decided to record a video journal of how I was feeling and to speak it out positively.

Solar Plexus Challenge 

I looked forward to this day. Not only because it was my day off but because I genuinely love Sundays. It was a beautiful Sunday to be out and active. The most perfect day to charge up my Solar Plexus Chakra. Yellow is my color!


The Solar Plexus Chakra is located in the center or core of the body. Self confidence is key when charging up the Solar Plexus Chakra. Creating a space for your body to feel safe in. At noon when the sun was high, I attended Vinyasa & Flow just to align my energy appropriately. Body goals: to be healthy, fit, and always flexible.

While working on my Core I began to analyze the spaces I take up. I currently feel as though I am wearing clothes that are too tight and that I must shed them in order to grow. I’m making a big move in the fall and relying on my devices and my faith to lead me. I’m very excited and look forward to what is to come. In the meantime I am still claiming my territory and shining intentional light when I can.

Yellow crystal and stones positively impact the Solar Plexus. The energies within the stone charge up feelings of self confidence and optimism. The strength of the shine with the body is drawn out by the crystals. Separately of course they have their own powers. Golden Calcite helps one on a spiritual journey. The stone allows for the mind to open up to new realizations and new perspectives. Citrine allows for abundance to flow actively throughout your life. As the body acts on desires they become a reality.


One of my goals is to become a creative director for scenes, videos, and photoshoots. Today I got my make up done professionally and designed my own shoot. The act of modeling is allowing for more comfort in my body. It felt amazing to allow my confident to take up space and flow thru my being.


That evening I meditated on my core. I thanked the universe for the beautiful day. For the sunlight and the moonlight. For family and friends. For the opportunity to grow and shift. For blessing me with Divinity. Amun

Sacral Chakra Challenge 

The Sacral Chakra is second on the Chakra scale. The sacral chakra is influenced by water and creativity. It honors uniqueness and change within an individual body. In a sense ‘going with the flow,’ and allowing space for the self to be open.

This chakra has the strongest effect on the body’s sexual tendencies and desires. It is located in the region of the reproductive organs on both the male and female body. The Sacral Chakra encourages a healthy connection between emotions and sexual pleasure. To often, this Chakra is weakened by poor experiences and meaningless encounters. It is important to know and understand how one feels love.

This morning I woke particularly confident. Grateful for another day to challenge myself to Be Better. I prepared my crystals for the day’s world: Orange Calcite. This stone works with the creative energies to keep imagination active. Seek inspiration from everything and go with those motions.


When you perceive yourself as an artist you give yourself the constant relief of never having to justify your decisions. You allow yourself to explore and learn. Even as things may feel wrong or bad, you learn to accept even that for what it is… possibilities.


My day was great and full. Spent my sunset in Prospect Park celebrating new life and birth. A genius idea of becoming a dula or midwife came to me this evening while blowing bubbles with a baby girl, Luna. Although I want kids I want to overcome my apprehensions about childbirth.

Later that evening, two Cancer friends joined me for my Sacral Meditation Session for the night. My rising sign is a Cancer so I enjoy being amidst Cancerous energy, it helps me toss a softer palette. For as long as I’ve known my Soul Sister, she has insisted that I read crystal balls. I doubted myself as working on crystal ball readings is not something I considered, although I have great communication with crystals. My Soul Sister granted me with a powerful gift, a Bright Blue Calcite Crystal Ball.

Root Chakra Challenge

The Chakra Challenge is something I’ve been conceptualizing for a few months. I’m constantly looking for new and creative ways to explore my energy portals. And improve my quality of health.

The Chakra System is a channel of energy points beginning at the base of the spine rising to the crown of the head. Each energy point corresponds to an organ or organ system and effects the functions of physical body. The chakra points also have specific colors aligning to their energy patterns. Many things such as foods, sights, smells, and touching the points can all be very stimulating to the chakras.

The Chakra Challenge is a self care technique inspiring one to reflect on the inner strength while putting effort into the outer appearance. Wear the colors that influence the Chakra point or charge up the chakras by meditating.


Day 1 began today! Starting at the Base Chakra, the Root Chakra. The day was designed to be busy and I knew I would need a lot of endurance. From early afternoon to about 9pm my books were loaded at the salon. The goal was to not get distracted by outside energies but to focus on my own levels. Doing the best I can from start to finish, remaining consistent, and checking in with my clients as well as myself.

As a crystal child, I am constanty working with crystal energies and frequencies. I make a point to never enter my place of work without Black Tourmaline. Simply because it protects against negative vibes and that is crucial in my industry. On this day however the tourmaline was to ground me in spiritual practicality. Assisted by my Red Jasper to ground me in my work and keep me determined.


Aside from stability the root chakra assist one in their analysis of their fears. Prior to starting this challenge I was in a position in which I felt extremely unsafe. I’ll include the details in a separate post. The experience served as a catalyst for me to begin the challenge so the details are equally as important.

Fear is a strong determined factor for how behavior is rationalized. The scale has two extremes – fear and love. While my work day was extremely productive I encountered my fear late into the night… waterbugs.

Although the insect wasn’t alive I still felt myself frozen in fear. I am aware of my bugphobia and perhaps this brought an awareness to start developing courage. I was able to observe myself in fear. I become very still. On this journey I want to use this stillness to my advantage and train this stillness into stealth.

I finished off my Root Chakra day with a meditation session. I have exploring binary beats and frequencies and their effects on the body. The sacred sounds induce a new level of focus and have impacted me tremendously. A 10 minute Binary Chakra healing session provided by YouTube allowed me to tune my base and prepare my mind.